I know it hurts more than it should. The word pain doesn't even begin to cover it. But please, please believe me when I say - it will ease, in time. Keep going. There is always someone who loves you and needs you.
#rumors. I think people sometimes believe anything they hear instead of asking the person who supposedly "started" it...or take something out of context and run with it because they didn't hear the whole conversation. Ask the source! Be honest. No sense in negativity being allowed in to your life.