I've been in this place ..and that's when I just hold on to everything I know and believe about my Lord. We are told in his word to pray without ceasing. So pray in good times and pray even harder in bad times.
My mother in law just reminded me that you can't help the unsaved, all you can do is pray for them, so that's what I will continue to do. Thank you Jaimee for keeping me in the loop of what she is doing again. I guess there's no escape.