Let the past be the past. Live free of regret. Redefining yourself is always an choice. People may judge you on your past and who they think you are now. They don't know where you're going and who you can become so go be it.
Reminds me of my last trip to visit my sick grandpa! On the way home I got the call I was dreading! He passed! Xoxo grandpa! I will see you in the afterlife! So glad I got to kiss you, and tell you I love you! When u grabbed my hand, it melted my heart!