Yes! The Pandora "Film Scores" station is the best music for studying, working, thinking, cleaning house, cooking, whatever. It's awesome! (think: Hans Zimmer, James Howard, James Horner, Alan Silvestri, John Powell, John Williams, and more. FANTASTIC!)
You're doing both, Sarah. None of it will help you overcome your mental illness. Accept that she moved on and upgraded, learn why you lost such a wonderful person. Go become a decent partner for someone else. I won't beat her and use her like you did.