Grief is a life long process. It changes as time passes but it never goes completely away. Suddenly a gust of wind can just knock me over. I will never completely understand it but I'm doing pretty well now.
The best place to cry is in the shower; cause you don't need a tissue. You can cry so hard that you drool; you can let the snot run down your face and the best part is no one can hear you. In the shower you can go strait into the ugly cry.