Once you genuinely love someone, that love doesn't leave, because they left. Your love for them, however, will have to manifest itself differently. You're going to have to accept loving them from a distance. No contact or communication. Say your prayers and wish them well. Having love for them doesn't necessarily mean that you have to pursue them. Loving them from afar may be the best solution for you.
so, do it. decide. is this the life you want to live? is this the person you want to love? is this the best you can be? can you be stronger? kinder? more compassionate? decide. breath in. breath out and decide - meredith grey