Yeah it was really awkward. But you all made me feel used and dirty. That's not friendship. That's narcissistic friends who are only self serving. Shame on you all. Your mothers raised you better than this.
I hate this feeling. This feeling of being alone. Being sad for no reason. I hate how everytime it seems to get better I just sink right back in. People always ask why I cut. It takes away the pain. Makes me feel numb.
I was better.or so I thought. Maybe I was never better, but maybe it was this one person who made me think I was better. Its become evident now that shes gone, that ill never be better. I wont be her better, and I CANT be my own better.