If only more people understood this... It's not that I don't enjoy being with my friends, it's just that it's exhausting trying to hold a conversation or force a smile. Sometimes I just need someone to quietly be there.
"I'm sorry I lied. I'm sorry I am a coward. I'm sorry I didn't work to earn your love. I'm sorry I made you feel crazy and I made you doubt your own validity as a human being. I'm sorry I took everything you gave without giving anything back. I'm sorry I stalled and cheated and couldn't be a man for you, not even once. I'm sorry I abused you."